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destinystrings2013-12-30 08:45 am
badluckhealer) wrote in destinystrings2013-12-30 08:45 am
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[backdated to December 20] my loving heart, lost in the dark
Who: Agatha Sheridan, Shadow Agatha Sheridan, open
Where: Gemini district. 13th Hour. Outside the Mictlan.Heaven or Hell, Let's Rock!
Summary: A really long overdue confrontation - and not just because it's backdated.
Warnings: Frank discussion of a really shitty childhood, probably some talk of violence in there too. Oh, and there's gonna be a Shadow fight. That too....and the Shadow is one chatty little thing.
[She shouldn't be doing this. She knows that. Getting involved is against the rules Mother taught her. The rules of the family, the first rules she ever knew. Don't get involved. Just stay out of the way and don't start anything. And yet here she is, at the only place she can guess her Shadow would be.
And she's guessed correctly, given the other Agatha waving at her cheerily.]
Hello~
...
[The almost puppetlike Shadow seems unfazed by the lack of reply.]
Let me guess - oh wait, it isn't a guess - you're trying not to start anything, right~? The main directives that bitch taught us: neutrality, secrecy, stoicism, aidi-
...Don't insult Mother.
[The Shadow just sighs and shakes her head, throwing up her arms in a very 'whatcha gonna do' way. The real Agatha, on the other hand, just has her fists clenched and her eyes narrowed - subtle hints of anger, but very real.]
It isn't like you're not thinking it! I'm you, you know. And let's face it, didn't you always resent that witchy woman for how she treated you? Like you weren't even h-u-m-a-n. And it never got any better, did it~?
...Be quiet...
You're doing a pretty bad job of this whole "accept yourself" thing! But then, a puppet shouldn't even bother with that, right~? Puppets don't feel, they don't hurt, it's okay to make them bear the wounds of others! It's okay for them to be alone and never learn how to feel anything! As long as it does what it's supposed to do, it's okay, right~? And that's why you just. Can't. Accept. Change. Now can you~? It's just like the Other Ancestor said, you know, there's already a ton of healers here! We're completely redundant, us Sheridans, and you know it! But you just can't accept it now can you~?
We are not--
We are. Totally, totally redundant. There's no point to continuing as you did before...but you can't accept it! Because blah blah, duties of a child of the First City, blah blah, gotta make up for the first murder and all the other bullshit our other ancestors pulled, blah blah blah. I mean really, the Other Ancestor doesn't even seem to care, to say nothing of the one from our world? What's the point?
... Do not discuss things like this wh-
Where other people can hear them, right? That's mommy dearest speaking. Not you. Don't you have opinions and feelings of your own? Well, of course, otherwise I wouldn't be here! [The Shadow grins brashly.] So~? You still don't know anything about yourself, do you? You won't let yourself know, will you? I'm right, aren't I?
... [The real Agatha closes her eyes and takes a deep breath. She knows she's supposed to just accept the Shadow. She knows this. That's what the guy on the network said. She has to just accept it. ... But it's...]
I can't...I can't!
[It's probably the first time she's outright howled in pain in years. The Shadow pauses at that, blinking, before looking...oddly gentle.]
...Wow. All of that pain, all of that misery...It's probably better if you don't have to deal with it anymore, huh? The truth is, you should've just stayed that smiling little girl who wanted to play at being a bird...but life made it otherwise. It's okay, I'll end it for you now.
[And just like that, a ragged, tattered version of Armaiti is summoned - along with the true one, in self-defense.
Round 1, start.]
Where: Gemini district. 13th Hour. Outside the Mictlan.
Summary: A really long overdue confrontation - and not just because it's backdated.
Warnings: Frank discussion of a really shitty childhood, probably some talk of violence in there too. Oh, and there's gonna be a Shadow fight. That too....and the Shadow is one chatty little thing.
[She shouldn't be doing this. She knows that. Getting involved is against the rules Mother taught her. The rules of the family, the first rules she ever knew. Don't get involved. Just stay out of the way and don't start anything. And yet here she is, at the only place she can guess her Shadow would be.
And she's guessed correctly, given the other Agatha waving at her cheerily.]
Hello~
...
[The almost puppetlike Shadow seems unfazed by the lack of reply.]
Let me guess - oh wait, it isn't a guess - you're trying not to start anything, right~? The main directives that bitch taught us: neutrality, secrecy, stoicism, aidi-
...Don't insult Mother.
[The Shadow just sighs and shakes her head, throwing up her arms in a very 'whatcha gonna do' way. The real Agatha, on the other hand, just has her fists clenched and her eyes narrowed - subtle hints of anger, but very real.]
It isn't like you're not thinking it! I'm you, you know. And let's face it, didn't you always resent that witchy woman for how she treated you? Like you weren't even h-u-m-a-n. And it never got any better, did it~?
...Be quiet...
You're doing a pretty bad job of this whole "accept yourself" thing! But then, a puppet shouldn't even bother with that, right~? Puppets don't feel, they don't hurt, it's okay to make them bear the wounds of others! It's okay for them to be alone and never learn how to feel anything! As long as it does what it's supposed to do, it's okay, right~? And that's why you just. Can't. Accept. Change. Now can you~? It's just like the Other Ancestor said, you know, there's already a ton of healers here! We're completely redundant, us Sheridans, and you know it! But you just can't accept it now can you~?
We are not--
We are. Totally, totally redundant. There's no point to continuing as you did before...but you can't accept it! Because blah blah, duties of a child of the First City, blah blah, gotta make up for the first murder and all the other bullshit our other ancestors pulled, blah blah blah. I mean really, the Other Ancestor doesn't even seem to care, to say nothing of the one from our world? What's the point?
... Do not discuss things like this wh-
Where other people can hear them, right? That's mommy dearest speaking. Not you. Don't you have opinions and feelings of your own? Well, of course, otherwise I wouldn't be here! [The Shadow grins brashly.] So~? You still don't know anything about yourself, do you? You won't let yourself know, will you? I'm right, aren't I?
... [The real Agatha closes her eyes and takes a deep breath. She knows she's supposed to just accept the Shadow. She knows this. That's what the guy on the network said. She has to just accept it. ... But it's...]
I can't...I can't!
[It's probably the first time she's outright howled in pain in years. The Shadow pauses at that, blinking, before looking...oddly gentle.]
...Wow. All of that pain, all of that misery...It's probably better if you don't have to deal with it anymore, huh? The truth is, you should've just stayed that smiling little girl who wanted to play at being a bird...but life made it otherwise. It's okay, I'll end it for you now.
[And just like that, a ragged, tattered version of Armaiti is summoned - along with the true one, in self-defense.
Round 1, start.]
dammit!
The Shadow growls in frustration. "HEY! Get outta the way! For crying out loud, you're not helping!"
I'M (not) SORRY...
"Look, I'm fine. But you -- both of you -- need to stop this. This is no way to do anything!"
you're damned right you're not
my tagsmolasses. "...I'm sorry, it's just--""--Change isn't that easy. Besides, everyone here knows the faker's gonna take too long with it, even if she does manage that whole "accept the Shadow" thing." Shadow Aggie tsks a little, waving one index finger in a very 'nope nope got it wrong' way. "It's much quicker to just eliminate the issue, don't you think? Pretty hilarious that the one who bleeds is the one who's fake!"
The Shadow cackles before trying to bum-rush Agatha - just a flat-out attempt at tackling the other girl. Thankfully, Aggie manages to dodge...barely. She did manage to get nicked on the side of her face--
But she's also bringing out her own can of pepper spray: the only kind of Fire that can get past Fire resistance. Is this going to be a pepper spray can duel? It just might be.
--I'm sorry for the POWER OF FRIENDSHIP-esque thing that's happening here--
How he manages to move that quick after sleeping an eternity, no one knows."Yes, change is hard. I get that -- but what does killing yourself solve, huh? NOTHING!" His gaze is leveled toward the Shadow, but it's clear that the meaning behind his words is aimed squarely toward the two of them. "Whether it be our bodies or our emotions, destroying a part of ourselves solves absolutely nothing."
--it's cool--
The Shadow's got her hands clutched over the sides of her head, gold eyes wide in rage and shock.
"The faker's lived this long not feeling anything, right? It's only fair - it's only fair...!"
This breakdown's been a long time coming.