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Yamato's eyes narrowed. He knew exactly what Kaito was smiling about! But he let it go after a little sour glare in his direction.

"...in any case," he muttered, "It's been a while since we last spoke."

That's true. He nodded, yawning and leaning against the window, looking pretty content.

"Mmn. I was actually gonna head over, but I didn't know if you'd be cool with me getting snot everywhere, haha."

"I wouldn't mind."

Well, a minor lie. He liked to avoid sick people, because working when ill was more than a little unpleasant. However, as always when it came to Kaito, he would make an exception for him. He was just actually, well - happy, perhaps? It was nice to talk to him again, even if he wasn't his Hiro-

Not to say that Hiro had been his, but Ronaldo's-

Urgh, no! Don't think about such things. They made him feel a bit unsettled.

"You don't seem that ill currently."

...He wouldn't mind. Really. Really?

The guy who wore gloves all the time and carried disinfectant wouldn't mind Kaito wiping his nose willy nilly. Noted.

"I guess. Well, whatever." He gave a stretched and righted himself up, not leaning on the glass anymore. "Wanna head somewhere then?"

H-Hey! He hated everyone else's germs! Kaito's was perfectly fine!

Not that he wanted them but-

Okay stopping that train of thought.

Yamato tilted his head, a slight smile on his lips. "Yes. Perhaps we can get a coffee?" And get out of this bipolar weather. Yamato was dressed only for cold weather, not for sudden heat waves, after all.

...Yamato. Did...okay, to be fair, he probably wasn't aware of the signals he was sending but still.

Bro, you're asking him out of coffee, come on.

"Sure." Not that he cares.

Yamato was unaware that he was essentially asking Kaito out on a date, although he did look noticeably happy at the brunet accepting his offer. He hadn't spoken to Kaito all that much in recent days, and the thought of finally having him to himself made something warm and nice kindle in his chest.

"Come. I saw a café not far from here."

And off they go!

~~this is gonna end badly~~

~~so very very badly~~

On the one hand, he could bring up how Yamato was acting waaaay before they get to the coffee place.

On the other hand, potentially free coffee.

...Yeah, Kaito's going to take coffee and Yamato still acting sane and comparatively nice, so off he goes.

It doesn't take them long to reach the café, and it was obvious why Yamato chose it. It was more of a hole in the wall, relatively small and quiet. Cosy.

"I hope this is satisfactory?"

...Did Yamato seriously plan out-

Wait, that was a dumb question. Of course he planned it out. He probably planned out what he was even going to say before this and...

Fuck it, it was just coffee and Yamato was as aware of sexuality as the Rock of Gibraltar. Nothing's gonna happen. Just coffee.

"Um, yeah, hah, kinda...private."

Yamato mostly chose it because it wasn't all that crowded, which meant he had to deal with less people, but the fact that it was private for the both of them was also appealing to him, he wouldn't lie.

"Mm," Yamato replied, opening the door and walking inside. The interior was comfortably warm with homely colours, and small booths for customers to sit in. Definitely private.

He turned to Kaito before moving to sit down though, tilting his head towards the counter. Order first before sitting down deal. No waitresses here! "I'll order while you sit. What do you want?"

...That was unusually cordial, even for Yamato.

"Ah, tea's fine. Thanks." And he took his seat, somehow feeling like he's in trouble and was going to get a lecture any second.

Yamato was being rather cordial - because he wanted this to go as smoothly as possible. He didn't have an ulterior motive about this, after all he did stumble across Kaito by sheer accident, but he did want to selfishly enjoy this moment with the only one who he claimed to be his sworn friend.

Ah.

Had been his sworn friend.

No, possible-

He wasn't sure. He still felt confused and conflicted over Kaito, to be honest. This wasn't Hiro, who he had tentatively approached, and who had smiled and dazzled him (he admitted it, he had been dazzled by him), only to turn and go to Kuriki's side instead of his. What had he done wrong for that...? But Kaito hadn't done that. He wasn't quite the same as Hiro, but-

Substitution was fine.

Yamato brewed over these thoughts while ordering at the counter, and eventually laid them to rest after a moment of consideration. It was unimportant. His life here was all that mattered now, as he was permanently cut off from his old world, and was never in Kaito's. What happened here was what mattered, and Kaito had not yet betrayed him here.

Selfishness, yes. Yamato could admit that.

He walked over to the booth they were sitting at, setting the tea down in front of Kaito before sitting down across from him. A pot of milk - Yamato had a lot in his coffee, but he was unsure if Kaito took his tea black or what - and packets of sugar were set down between them.

"I wasn't sure how you took your tea, so use whatever you want."

...Yeah, at this point, he was looking around the place for cameras, to see if he was being Punk'd or something. This was...surreal. It was good that Yamato was being nice and considerate and...basically like a normal person, but that didn't stop it from being surreal and freaky.

Ah well, might as well enjoy it, so Kaito nodded and reached for the milk to put in his tea first out of habit.

Yamato was watching Kaito. Not discreetly either. He was staring right at his face, his gaze intense and unwavering, only broken by the occasional blink.

It was startling how similar Kaito and Hiro appeared. It seemed strange that they would have different names though. Yamato was Yamato in his world, Shijima's name was the same, Alcor was going by Al Saiduq though, which was a bit strange, but still responded to Alcor, Nitta's was the same...

Kaito also chose a different 'route', as it was. Hiro chose Ronaldo, because he believed in his ideal world of pure equality. Were the differences between them deeper than a simple name change? It must be, if Kaito chose Alcor - not a better choice, but.

"Why did you go with Alcor?"

His tone is purely curious. There was no hint of anger or bitterness within it.

...Well, that's

That was a question he didn't think he'd be hearing! Although he just stared at Yamato while he was in the middle of taking a couple sugar packets.

"Uh?" Man, if only he would have asked this on Sunday. "Haha, it was actually kind of random. I mean, it's not like I wasn't thinking about what I wanted. I just didn't think that Saiduq would, you know, join us?"

Yamato automatically grimaced at the word 'Saiduq', his gloved fingers tightening around his cup of coffee before relaxing.

"Why do you call him Saiduq?" he muttered, feeling strangely irritated for reasons he couldn't pinpoint. "You do realise that is nothing more than an alias, right?"

"...Why not? He likes the name. Like, I know he's ~Alcor~ and all that, but he likes being Saiduq."

If that...made any sense at all.

Yamato let out a harsh breath through his nose, tapping his fingers against the side of his cup, watching the brown surface of his coffee ripple from the minor movements.

"So he cast his original name aside, then? Obviously, he would," Yamato muttered the last part under his breath, his lips pressing together in a thin line. His tense expression relaxed after a fraction though, shoving the irritable emotions out of the way to be forgotten. Annoying things.

"It's unimportant. So you simply sided with him by accident?"

"Kind of. After everyone separated, I just...went out for a walk to clear my head, you know? I was just sick of everyone fighting when Polaris was the one causing all this. And..."

>You explained to Yamato about the conversation you had with Saiduq.

Yamato was quiet for a long moment, his gaze still watching the surface of his coffee. To be honest it looked like he hadn't been listening at all to Kaito, from the sheer lack of response he was giving.

Then, "You wished to start the world completely anew, with Alcor as the new Administrator?" he asked softly, before letting out a low chuckle. A new world? A clean slate? Only Alcor would support something so - fantastical. A new world would mean nothing, as humans as they were now would only force it to descend back into its previous state of corruption and filth.

They were disgusting, horrible beings. Did the new world change their ways? Perhaps, if the environment fostered something different to a world of laziness and corruption... but judging by how Kaito explained them, neither Alcor or him knew how the new world would have turned out.

"Again, you defy my expectations. The old world - yes, it deserved to be obliterated from the annals of history in such a fashion, but what point is there in creating a new one? It would simply rot from the inside out like before if the people remained the same."

"You don't know that for sure."

He said with rock solid confidence.

"If everyone ever on the planet were so bad and horrible, what about me? Or Daichi and Io, or Makoto, or everyone else who decided to step up? What about them?"

"You are the exception to the norm," Yamato said without hesitation. "You cannot deny that the vast majority of people are selfish, greedy creatures. Our society was built by bribery and nepotism, where useless filth were placed in positions of power, just because they had enough money to buy their way there, or because they were the favoured nephew-niece-cousin of so and so, and such and such. We were a society where talent was persistently squandered and crushed because of ridiculous things like "they're outsiders", or "they're women", or "they come from a poor family". A society where judgement is done by appearances and family, rather than actions and qualities."

Yamato didn't shout or raise his voice during this rant. He spoke in a very calm, steady manner, his gaze finally lifting from his coffee to stare intently into Kaito's eyes, as if trying to make him understand.

"That sort of thinking is ingrained into humans after thousands of years of this. They make the same mistakes over and over again. Many have tried to change it, but have simply despaired over their failures, and subsequently died because of it. The only way to change this flaw in humans is through revolution, when the foundations of their society is wrenched out from beneath them, forcing them to rely on their own skills - to develop their own skills to sustain humanity. Isn't that for the best? Would you rather have humans continue on this path, to rot and stagnate, to destroy a new world from the same mistakes born of an old, broken mindset...?"

At the end of Yamato's...whatever that was, Kaito sighed and ran his hand over his face, as if he were trying to rub off whatever Yamato was flinging at him. He couldn't help but stare at his tea.

"I'd rather people kept what made them human in the first place. And if you think I'm just the exception, I'm..."

He sipped a bit of his tea to calm himself.

"I'm sorry."

"Am I wrong?" Yamato asked, settling back in his seat abruptly. He hadn't realised he'd been leaning forward while speaking. He studied Kaito for a moment, finding himself frustrated that he was struggling to properly read his body language. Was he upset? Angry? Understanding? Not? No, he appeared discomforted? Had Yamato come across wrongly again?

He didn't- what were the right words?! He wasn't sure what he was saying wrong! He was right, and - surely, Kaito had to understand...! He lived with the dregs, he was shining with such potential, so he had to understand what Yamato meant! If the Invasion never happened, Kaito would have lived a life of utter mediocrity, and such talent wasted was a complete crime!

"...I don't understand."

Edited 2012-12-28 00:46 (UTC)

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